So, it's been a while and I keep saying I am going to get going on this, but still keep putting it off. I have so much I want to say, but never want to sit here and type. BUT, my current focus right now is prayer. In the past month, I know of at least 5 long term marriages that have separated and/or divorced, and I gotta say, it just pisses me off! My parents did that. Raised us kids and then it wasn't worth it anymore. At which time, not only did I have to accept the divorce and the new "people" in their lives, I had to be able to explain it to my son. Doesn't anyone tough things out anymore? The easy thing to do is give up, but what does that say about you? Seriously? The easy way does not mean it's the right way. I'm not real good at quoting scripture, but I do know there is something in the Bible that says that the narrow path leads to righteousness. I just hate to see people give up on each other. If there's not adultery, or abuse, then why can't you work it out? Remember what made you fall in love with that person to begin with! Think of the effect it will have on your kids, your family and all of the traditions you have built up over the years! One friend said to me "Well, when does it get to be about me? When do I get to be "happy"????? My response is "the day you give birth to a child is the day it QUITS being about you, no matter how old that child gets!!" You OWE it to that child to make the best of it, to give it EVERYTHING you have to make it work, even if it means sacrifice of yourself and what you MIGHT THINK is going to make you "happy"......We can ALL think of things that might make us happier, but they might not necessarily be right, because if they were right for us, God would see to it that we had it!!!!

I have 3 friends that are in "new" relationships. I am thrilled for them, I am glad they found happiness in their life. BUT, if I sit and listen to nothing but them, then I could start to make myself unhappy, I could start desiring the "butterflies" and the fun of a new relationship. Therefore I surround myself with married couples, I try to be around positive, uplifting couples who love each other, because they make me want that with my husband of over 20 years! Do we have a perfect marriage? BY NO MEANS!! But I am thankful for all the memories I have with him, I look forward to making more, and I love being able to talk about the "old days" with the man who went through it with me!

We can look at many things and think they might bring us the happiness we are looking for, but in all actuality, if we are not happy with ourselves, NOTHING is going to get us there either. So start looking internally to see what you need to change in yourself to bring on happiness. Quit whining when someone else has something, or gets something that you THINK you deserve. You have to learn to be happy for others and their blessings. How is God going to bless you with those kinds of things when you are so selfish that you don't want to be around people who have it because you think you deserve it more?? Trust me when I say that God WILL equip you with everything you need AND THEN SOME!!! Get over yourself, quit whining and crying, and grow up. Realize (especially married people) that it's not always about you!!! So, there is my rant and there is my prayer!! I pray for all of these couples that have split, that they may see the right way to do things and that God show them the way back to each other, finding happiness along the way. I am tired of seeing failed marriages, and for 5 in a month's time, my heart can't take any more!